peoplesoft1

friends, i need suggestion.
i met a girl 6 months ago (arrange marriage), i fell in love vd her n so c did. i decided to marry her, n v got engaged in 3 months n married in next 4 months thereafter.

c told me almost everything except 1 that c loved someone in d past and couldn't materalize the love because that a$$ hole was actually married n might be enjoying her company without revealing the fact to her.
when c came to knw c broke all relations vd him.
before breaking the relation c had good time with him n even exchanged few kissses. n i don't knw what all.
actually all this c didn't tell me, i came to knw through some means and i told ehr to tell me the truth but c didn't so i still believed her because i loved her.
but when i got the proofs against her, i confronted her only to find that this time c told the truth.
so the problem the biggest problem is c broke my trust by not telling me the truth at the first place.
and i can't forgive her for letting another man touch her.
i want to go away. but i think what c vl do after that n what will happend with her old parents.
i m tense n suffering my self by drinking. the moment i think someone else touched her i find a fire burning inside me.
what to do. neither i m able to leave her nor accept her.
friends pls suggest. i knw most of u vl say forget but really believe me i tried all but i can't.