| | Re: I feel raw and have to be nice?
Ugh, I think today was a mistake, but I held my ground.
He had been promising to send money and hadn't, so I finally told him we were going out and needed it. He invited himself along and I allowed that because he works out of town, is gone so long, and rarely sees the kids. But I think that was still a mistake. Our separation is so new, and he went out of town directly after I told him to move out, and didn't come back only because his work was keeping him. But he is back, sort of, (long story), and I agreed to let him come. But no more.
Whenever he tried to talk to me, I wasn't mean, I simply ignored him to avoid unnecessary conversation. Sometimes he laughed when I wouldn't look at him or return conversation, as if to say, "You're still upset? You've got to be kidding. Come on!" Other times he would get frustrated and go silent. We all had a lovely day, but I hated the fact that if he didn't act like such a jack-ss, we could all be really happy and enjoy days like this for real.
On the way home, he laughed and acted playful in trying to get me to talk to him. All I could say was, "Do you honestly think this is some kind of joke?"
He didn't say anything to me directly for the rest of the evening until he left. Boy, is my head swimming.