| | Re: I've realized my thoughts have not been on OW
I read and respond to many of these post. I was the cheater. She is my second wife (15 years) and I fell off the wagon. We reconciled about 11 years ago and she says she has forgiven me. With her its like it never happened. But I read these post and realize the pain I caused in as many years to the best thing that ever happened to me. I will never forgive myself and will always be haunted by what I did to her and our marriage. I lucked out. I didn't deserve it but I lucked out. I can only hope I've made some of it up to her and will continue to do so. But I owe her a debt I can never repay. Affairs are the ultimate betrayal. Affairs are like drugs. They destroy you and those that matter most.