Well I think we hit another break through.. This morning I was a little upset and I can see she was.. She told me today that she thinks she will explode at the MC tonight. She is going to let out how she feels. I Think this is great. She needs to voice her frustrations/hurt feelings. She is going to bring up how I made her feel over the years. I must be dense when it comes to the things that happen.. It's not that I try to hurt her it's that I don't take things to heart as much. Now with her at its witts end and the way she feels it's hard to see her stop and try and make it work.. She used the anaolgy if she slept with 10 guys and told me then expcet me to move on would I?? I guess I understand her point but her communication to me has been the reason this keeps happening. Instead of resolving issues at the time both of us don't. She told me today she is going to go to hopefully have the MC translate her issues from her to me so I can understand why she is feeling this way. She said she wants me to coupe with it. Now I am not sure if that ment to make it better in the future or for me to understand and move on. If it did her future plans don't make sense. We talk about holidays and plan daycare and of course still sleeping in same bed. She said she can't accept my promise letter now.. I guess cause she is so mad. She did ask me to bring it to the MC session. Not sure why.. Now if she lets it all go I hope the MC gives her the strength to work on the issues. She thinks we are just horrible at this.. Marriage that is. Right now I am not sure how I feel... I am a bit scared she won't give this the chance again to make it better.. I hope and pray she does.. I hope she doesn't go there and let it out and then not go again cause I don't feel she would have learned anything and once again she will repeat pattern cause she expect guys to pick up on the little things and I can tell you most miss it..
If anybody can tell me if this is good or not I would appreciate it.. It looks dark right now... I hope she can move past this anger and frustration to feel my love for her.. Right now she can't as there is too much in front..