GAsoccerman

I am sorry to hear/read all of this.

I am Sorry to say this, But you need to get out of this relationship, you need to move on.

Thre are plenty of people out there that are good solid human beings. Stop living this way.

You need to get professional counseling, not from a pastor.

You need time to heal your wonds and get your life in Order, your husband won't and it will only get worse.

I say divorce him, do not expect anything ever again from him, but headaches, and move on with your life.

Find someone that LOVES you and will be a equal partner in Life.

I wish you all of the luck in the world, I really do, normally I would tell you to work it out, But I just can't see it getting better only worse.

Leave him and divorce him, start A new life and find the right man for you.

Best of Luck