we both realised that my husband working away from home during the week and then coming home late fri and then going back to work late sun on and off for 2 years was probably the main factor to why my husband wanted attention .he also admitted he had rung sex lines etc but never went through with anything.funny enough, that i wasn't the least bit bothered by.when i first found that text from this woman, until then i had no reason to even think he would think of being with someone else.i honestly don't know who was more shocked by his behaviour.me or him!
what hurts the most is thinking about how he lied to me, also made me feel very insecure about the way i looked and that he no longer loved or wanted me.i was so hurt at the time.i never really got angry with him as at the time i thought he would leave.he said he felt that if he put one foot wrong he would be shown the door.my ex- husband was absolutely dreadful, so when i met my husband 16yrs ago i thought he was perfect!maybe my expectations were too high and i was naive.i know neither of us worked on our marriage so in that sense we are both to blame, but i had opportunity if i had wanted,to cheat,but that's not me.i thought he was the same
we are slowly moving along,but some days i feel like an idiot for staying with him, then other days i think it's all going to be ok! i just can't believe i can still get so upset by it!
