| | i am so alone
My problem is that i am so alone in trying to make the most difficult decision in my life and i need your help...My husband is the most controlling, bullying, hateful person i have ever come across even my/his children cant bare him any more.
I am ready to ask for a divorce but am so scared of the reaction i will get. I have been controlled by him and his narcissistic ways for over 23 years and i really am at the end of my tether.
I have been physically and constantly verbally abused for some time now, i had to call the police last year when he thought it was as good idea to smack my head on the concrete floor, but as i am sure a lot of people know - they say sorry and it will never happen again! (the police did want to prosecute but i did not want to take it any further as it may ruin him)
I am fed up with being the last thought in our relationship, i am fed up with not being spoken to with some respect, i am fed up with it all being about this so called man.
I could write a book on his abusive behaviour, but I would never disclose his name - WHY ?
I am sH1t in his eyes, so please please tell me WHY i still put up with this crap...