| | One year ago this month he had a ONS...FML!!!!
I am having the hardest time getting through his infidelity still. I feel fine some days, and then other hit a major brick wall and can't stop the tears.
It was a year ago the 25/26 of June that he slept with a girl he met at a bar. I didn't know about it until September when he confessed.
Just a brief run down again...we got pregnant, we were both going through some financial hardships and we needed to come up with a plan. So I decided to leave New Jersey and head to Arizona where I thought the job market might be a bit better and rent was a bit cheaper. I left on June 10th, he was to follow me a month later. Turns out, he was so pissed at me for leaving the state and in essence, making him leave the state that he decided he was going to use the time away from to his advantage and find a girl to hook up with.
And he did. He met a girl at a bar he did work at and pursued her for a week until he got her in bed. His bed, where we had slept together, conceived our daughter. When she came into his room, she made some comment about my picture on his desk and he promptly removed it to the top of the closet.
I had called and texted him all night, and couldn't reach him. Little did I know then why...he was ignoring me.
It took him 14 days from the day I left the state to get into bed with someone else. He shut me out and treated me like crap for those two weeks. He had met her the day after I left. She knew about me and the baby I was carrying. And she slept with him anyway.
Why don't these people (the WS and the the skanks they sleep with) ever consider those of us on the other end? I am a real person with real feelings. I was so in love with him. I trusted him and was looking forward to our future.
A year later and I am still a mess. I hate her, I hate him and love him all at the same time. I can't for the life of me stop imagining them together in that room. I feel like I am dying inside everyday.
I wish I could get over it already...everytime I think I am close it all comes crashing down around me again.
How is the chase of a piece of ass and getting that piece of ass on her back worth more then the woman that loved him??????
Why wasn't I enough?