Re: One year ago this month he had a ONS...FML!!!!
Hi Lisa
Sorry for what you are going through. Must be very tough for you esp as you have a young baby to care for too. That's emotional and exhausting on its own without having to deal with this.
I'm sorry I'm not up to speed with where you are now but are you and H now living together and actively working on the marriage?
Anniversaries are tough. We just had the Aniversary of our dday. We are 2 months into R. I'm lucky. H has taken full responsibility for his actions and our R is going well. Saying that though, I can certainly empathise with you. I suffer from frequent mind movies and triggers. The triggers are getting easier to deal with but the mind movies are a *****. I haven't quite figured out how to control them yet.
So is he showing try remorse and transparency? Is he doing everything he can to make this right for you?
You are sounding angry Lisa, as you know this is completely normal and as BSs one of the emotions we are entitled to feel. This worries me a little though as I never hit the angry stage, not with H anyway. All my anger is towards the OW!
Are you in IC/MC? I know this can be very expensive. I've been lucky and have been having regular IC through my work and it has helped me a lot. I have self esteem issues and blamed myself for a long time. IC has really helped me with realising that this was t my fault and that H chose the path of infidelity.
Anyway Lisa. Hope you and baby are doing ok. What did you have?
Look after yourself and keep healthy for your little person. Your H doesn't deserve you for putting you through such a thing when you were pregnant.
Take care
DG
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