As some of you may know, I am a cheater. I've been cheating for 9 months. I recently started marriage counseling, but I'm still cheating. I'm not sure if I want my marriage to work. I wouldnt leave my husband for this man, I just want to be alone. (Just like I've been for 12 years.) I want to tell him, but dont want to hurt him. I know sounds crazy, but true. I love him, but not in love with him. I have not been in love for years. We've had discussions about all of the issues in our relationship for years without any results. I guess I'm tired of everything.
I really just want a divorce but don't know how to bring myself to tell him without hurting him deeply. I know that he loves me, but sometimes that is not enough. I need someone I can talk to.
Does anyone have any suggestions?
Don't throw me under the bus, yet......
