trish_n_s

I think the porn has a lot to do with it but there are other things. Me and my husband are mormon so it is against our religion to look at porn. My husband was addicted to it. He couldn't go a day without looking at it and masturbating to it. For about 2 years of our marriage I wondered if there was something wrong with me because he never wanted to be sexual with me. He wasn't honest with me about it either. He lied to me for 4 years! I had to find out about it and I wasn't even snooping. He happened to leave something open on his computer so I confronted him about it.

I know there are a lot more other things too. I really am trying to be open minded about them but I really don't know how to react to them. I told him we needed to see a counselor and he agreed. I was talking to him tonight telling him how happy I was that he agreed to go. I said, I really hope we can talk through our differences we'll both be so much happier. He didn't say anything...so I just asked how he felt about it all. He says, I don't care, I'd be happy if all you'd do is stop complaining all the time. You're really annoying. How am I supposto react to that?? I said, that makes me feel really sad that you think I"m annoying. He replied, it's not my fault, I can't MAKE you feel sad, you can choose how you react to what I say.

I just really hope this counseling works. I am really looking forward to having him talk to me. I'm really interested to know what is it I do that makes him so annoyed with me.

I know it takes two people and I'm trying to change what I know he doesn't like about me but it's really frustrating when he doesn't care about my concerns too. It's been about 1 week since we talked about our concerns, dislikes and likes and I haven't nagged, cleaned, left our son with him, spent money or complained. I haven't seen a change in him I'm hoping it comes really soon because I don't know how much longer I can stand it.

Sorry so long, I just have a lot on my mind right now.