| | Confused please help
This could turn into quite a long story but please bear with me.
Tonight i told my husband of 8 years to leave. We were having a stupid row and i threw some towels, not at him, backwards over my shoulder, next thing i know hes pinning me to the floor with his hands on the top of my arms, pressing his forehead on mine really hard. I snapped, i can't take it anymore, it has happened before. When i was 5 months pregnant with our second child he forced me to the floor with his hands around my throat, and i forgave him, thena couple of years later he slapped me round the face, in between these times he has grabbed me and dragged me around by my arms or my legs.
i suffered from depression for 10 years and everytime we argued he always brought it up, telling me i was a nutter (his word) or that i was having a mental breakdown.
he wont work, i can't due to back problems and severe tension headaches
i've just taken my two kids to stay with my mum, just so i know they'll be safe. he wont stop texting me.
trouble is i dont know if i'm strong enough to make him stay away. i know it sounds stupid but i love him so much, but at the same time i'm so scared. please someone help, i dont know what to do