KittyKat

Yes DRAX, I have often felt used in this relationship. Another example would be today. As I said, she chats everyday online for hours. She carried on, what I would call an affair, with another guy for several months. It carried over from the computer to talking on the phone and texting each other. After I found out about it, I told her it was me or him and the computer. She chose me. But I've wondered if she did only because she had no where else to go. This just happened a month ago, when she ended it with him.

When she wanted to chat again, she said she would keep logs so I could see who she was talking to and what she was talking about if I wanted to.

Last night, she talked to the guy again, but turned off the logs. When I asked her about it today, she said she was wrong to turn the log off, but that she did nothing wrong.

In her eyes, she says that because she is here w/ me, that should be good enough and I should trust her. That anything she does online isn't real. BUT, because I'm not wired that way in my head, IF I WERE to flirt or anything like that online, SHE would consider it ME cheating. But it's NOT cheating if she does it cause she doesn't think it's wrong. But because I think it's wrong, it's cheating if I do it.
Then she says I have ruined her graduation day because of my accusations.

And to another previous poster, yes, she would take me in if I lost everything. But at the moment, I feel like a glorified maid and babysitter for her.
I don't understand how if someone loves you, they would continue doing something they know hurts you.
That's not love to me.