swedish

tv and reading are both great ways to escape from yourself. I too, never thought I would see a head-shrinker...but I did this last winter when I hit bottom and knew I just needed to get my head sorted. And now I will formally apologize to any head-shrinkers reading this post. It did help me a lot.

I was going through the motions in life, doing the things that had to be done. Hopes and dreams are for people who have time on their hands but I learned at a very young age that I need to be self-reliant (both of my parents had addictions of sorts) so I very much thought as a realist and did what needed to be done, like it or not. After much self-reflection, I realize eventually I will crash and burn if I don't change what I'm doing. I just needed to figure out what makes me happy and introduce some balance into my life and learn to ask for help. My husband stepped up and supports me with the things that need to get done. I just had to tell myself I was done living in that numb state.

I can say that having a nephew with a rare syndrome, who we watch once a week and whenever we can on weekends, is a non-stop full-time deal, but then we send him back home where my sister and brother-in-law take over 24/7 including the therapy and constant hospital emergencies. They are amazing parents and I know what a toll his care can be for them at times. Her husband is also a musician and plays guitar many nights for hours to get him to go to sleep...so when I am trying to get him to sleep, I just strum and strum...no idea how to play the thing...and he knows it!