lostluv

The doting is not anything new, he's done it for years and it has annoyed me for as many. I'm truely not sure I want counceling. I have had several happy visions of being on my own and living my life the way I want to. Not having to explain myself constantly, feel like I have to ask permission for every move, and constantly be under a microscope. The problem is I am afraid of hurting the kids, afraid of what it will do to me financially, and always cave in to his desire to "work it out" because he loves and needs me (his words). However, as I have said...nothing changes, including my feelings.