eurekha

hai , I very depressed and helpless, why i am posting here because i dont have anybody to share . some times i feel like to die , i dont know what to do,i can from the middle class family , my mother died when i was 5 days old baby, raised by my relatives, most off the time i am in histels , so i dont have any close family mumbers, my dad also not very supportive, i have been married for 6 yr , have 5 yr child , i never feel happy after my marriage , my husband he do smoke , he promised me he is gong to stop , but he didnt , and he will drink, he knows that i dont have any body to support me , if i asked about any thing he willl say do what ever u what to do, some time i feel tike to die , but i am thinking about my baby i dont want him to face what ever i am facing with out mom ,most of the time i will cry silently. need some advice please