05NeonSXT

My husband and I have been together for nearly 5 years. When I was pregnant with my first son (4 years ago) he left me for another woman. Things didn't work out with her, and when my son was 6 months old, he decided he wanted to work on things. I was really put off with him, and after 2 years he finally earned my trust back and I let him move in with me. Shortly after that I was pregnant again. He was really great, wanted me to be a stay-at-home mom, he worked 2 jobs and we had everything we needed and more. He was patient and understanding and was really proving to be a good man. We got married July of last year, and shortly thereafter I returned to work full time. So he decided to quit his full time job. It wouldn't be a big deal if he would stay home and watch the kids, but he never has been much of a dad. So, I got a significant raise and he quit his part time job. Now I'm paying all the bills, plus daycare, so he can sleep til noon play Playstation. He doesn't do the dishes, vacuum, laundry, nothing! That's not the worst of it, Monday nights he bowls ($12, gone from 6pm to 11pm), Tuesday nights he's home, but he'll go get a pop and be gone for 2 hours (we live in a 1 mile radius town) and have some off the wall story about this happened then that happened and that's why it took so long. Wednesday nights is the same as Tuesdays, Thursday he bowls again. Friday he "plays poker" from 5pm to whenever. He used to come home around 10 or 11, then it turned into 12 or 1 and lately it's turned into 3am. Saturday (I'm off so you'd think he'd want to spend time as a family) he goes racing so he's gone from 10 am to midnight. Sunday he plays poker again. - He's just not around anymore. When he is around, he's not interested. We have sex maybe once every 3 months or so, always initiated by me. He doesn't touch me, doesn't try to have personal time with just us, I just don't feel loved anymore. He says "Love you" when he leaves, and usually kisses me Bye, but there's no emotion there. It's like a chore for him. When we're in bed together, he'll wait til he thinks I'm asleep then go download porn. If I confront him about it, he says "I don't know how that got there" or "I let so and so come over the other day, maybe they did it". But I can see the date and time the file was downloaded. I just don't know where to go from here. I'm financially supporting him, fixing the car (he's blown 3 engines in the last 3 years in our family sedans), paying daycare, and still doing all the housework, laundry, etc.. If I'm going to do everything alone, should I just boot him and do it ALONE? Suggestions? I just feel like I'm a convience for him.