Re: love but not sure im in love
Lon,
I was just sick of having the same situation occurring again and again. That was the first time I had said that. I hadn't previously said it because I knew how she would react. Then, just last week, it almost happened again. I held my tongue because I knew her reaction was going to be that she would think I immediately wanted a divorce... and that would send her into a crying rage for the next several hours.
It's almost as if when I call her out on something, she immediately goes to the far extreme. There's no in-between. I know part of it is my fault too because I just don't call her out on stuff. Never have. The reason, again, because I know the reaction I'm going to get and it's always severe.
I think I'm going to get some counseling. And, the books sound interesting.
I don't want to blindside her with anything. I think she knows I'm unhappy. She'll ask and I'll tell her it's just work or I'm tired from work. I know that's not being honest either, but, the alternative is her blowing up.
Thanks again Lon.
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