The problem may be myself. I have not loved my husband for years. I have been depressed for many many years. There was a time when I would not leave the house other than to go to work. He was content with that because he always knew where I was at. He likes to keep tabs on me on. If Im out with the kids, I don't receive a call. Let me leave home without the kids, I get a phone call every ten minutes or so. Even though he could go where ever he liked without the kids. (The kids hardly went with him anywhere.)
I have never been able to be myself with him. Its not that he is controlling, I just hate the look on his face if everything is not his way. So I would give in and do nothing. My kids even see the difference when hes there. We could be joking around having fun. As soon as he comes in the room, everything goes dead. (Silence, tension).
Well I'm at the point where I dont care. I just want to be with my kids on my own.
But unfortunately, he does not want to separate. A divorce...........
