nursekris88

Hi Blue Eyes. I just joined this today, and you were the first post I looked at! The thing that struck me the most, is we too have been married for 18 years, however he hasn't cheated on me, I have on him; and seriously wish I had never gotten married at 19! We also have 2 kids, and that is the worst problem that goes with my story; I do NOT want to hurt them, or him for that matter. We are on the verge of seperation, living in "limbo" right now. BUT I wanted to give you some encouragement, if you are unhappy, and he is constantly cheating on you? Then you need to hit the road. I don't constantly cheat on my husband, but have a few times, deal with that guilt because I KNOW its wrong in God's eyes, and live my life day to day discontent, and unhappy. I don't love him, love it when he's gone; we are "friends"; he is "madly" in love with me, but I can't return it; and am tired of 1. hurting him, 2. being so unhappy, and 3. feeling guilty. Maybe we can help each other?