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When you say narcissism, do you mean narcissistic personality disorder?

Assuming you mean NPD, unless you can actually get him to admit he has a problem then you will never feel the love you deserve. Even if he admits he has a problem, he must make the steps to improve himself. It is not an easy task at hand if he has NPD. It is a lot of psychotherapy and depending on his initial condition it could take years before really breaking through.

Someone with NPD, with much work, is capable of deep feelings and emotions, but it is going to be a long battle. At this point, you are in for much heartache, confusion, and loneliness if he truly has NPD.

Of course you deserve happiness! If you want love from one loyal man, then you deserve that too! If he is unwilling, or can't give you what you want, then he doesn't deserve you. You are worth much more than that.