maybesoon

hi cooper. i was looking over the discussions about your relationship and i can reach out and say i feel you...although i am young, and have only been married for 2 years, i too have been feeling like a single married person.
my husband works minimally bc he is in higher education, and the money he does bring in is minimal and spent on wine, and dinners out, etc. i am in my 20s and work 60 hours a week to keep our financial needs afloat and when i come home the house is a disaster and he has been watching tv, looking on the computer, and lying on the couch all day eating fast food. it's truly depressing. i dont even want to kiss him anymore much less have sex and i am scared to end up like so many before me with children added on top of the problem.
i have spent much time researching the problem, looking for therapists, and even taking a college class to learn more about our issues. when i ask him to find a therapist (just show an inkling of wanting to keep our marriage afloat) he looks at one website on the day i kicked him out of the house and then gave up, saying that we need to look together. i.e. i need to look and schedule the appointment. i am married to a child and i am 25. ahhhhh.
i dont even know what to do anymore. i am so unhappy and done with it, i dont even know if it can be saved. shouldn't we still be in some honeymoon phase?
p.s. the only time he ever shows sexual interest in me is when he's drunk. never when he's sober, and its been so long it's just insulting. i told him this a week ago and true to form this week he got drunk and tried to have sex with me and when i denied him he got mad and said he was trying, am i?
sorry to go off on a tangant. i just really feel like i relate to you after reading your stories. i am sorry you have to go through that with children as well. i am sure that makes the situation even harder. but we should both consider that life is too short to be unhappy. and you can never get it back.