| | Re: Marriage is imploding
183 cm and 80kg (176 pound). I could do with some more muscle and have a receding hairline, (another self esteem issue) which is cut very short so it looks better. Jill says that she catches girls looking at me but I don't really notice, I only have eyes for Jill so I literally ignore other females.
Sex has been another issue over the years, I was very HD and wanted sex alot, Jill was LD and was quite happy for 1-2 a week ( like normal people). Take out the Pms week and it was 6 a month. I used to initiate sex alot and due to her LD I was constantly knocked back and we practically only had sex when she wanted it. I told her that the flip side of the constant rejection is that I will stop asking for it, which I have done and now she doesn't feel loved any more. She gave me thrush a few weeks back and after 3 weeks of no sex due to rubbing cream on the area 3 times a day I now have no interest in sex, Yes I am still attracted to her and my reaction when she touches me or by just looking at her is testament to that, I simply am not interested in the sex act. I use to touch, hug and grab her all the time she decided she didn't like that and I stopped, Now she is upset that I stopped and touches me more.
I use to send her naughty and sometimes very erotic messages that she loved, sadly she reacted poorly when one landed while she was visiting a girlfriend. Its now been over a year since I have sent her one of my special messages.
I use to text her while she was working, Its now been close to a month since I have sent a non important message. I on the other hand LOVE getting messages from the love of my life, in my depressed state a single message brightens my day and I get happy. Jill can't take the time to do this little thing for me (apparently she has time to chat to this other man, go on Facebook and such but has no time to text me).
And in response to a previous comment from Warlock, yes I have access to her phone, it doesn't have a password and she always forgets it, (another sore spot for me) Nothing worse than trying to call /text your partner about both Important and non important stuff only to have the phone ring behind you.