| | No Contact is So Difficult
Hadn't heard from him for a while now. Tonight I get this text:
"The moon is beautiful tonight." (It's a full moon)
So, I ignore it. Then another:
"Sorry so late. I was just thinking of about you & wondering if you are doing ok." (It was only around 10:30pm)
What is he up to?
I wanted to respond soooo badly, but I am trying to hold strong. I'm doing NC because every time I do respond, I'm left feeling empty and disappointed. So, why does it feel like I'm playing games?
I'm still in love and he is not. I know he's serious with the OW (it's been ten months) and I fluctuate from burst of scary angry (but mostly directed at the OW) to extremely depressed and hopeless. Not responding is the right thing, right?
Ugh! I hate feeling like this all the time. It's been almost an hour now from that last text. I can't stop obsessing! When does it end?