justean

hi swedish and manny, at one point or another we all go through it. please dont think me heartless. if u actually knew me . i fought tooth and nail for my marriage to work. first hubby used to hit me and then had affair. second hubby likes drink and stupid friends. so their is always more behind any situation. my feelings did not just shut down. after 13 years together and 2 children . I actually want it all. love, kisses , hugs and family time. but my hubbys one stand stand is another huge issue to have to deal with.
i go out to have fun, i think im attractive and i have to feel good about myself in someway. i go horse riding as its my get away from the norm. we all deal with issues differently. dont get me wrong i have been broken many times. but im not sitting in a hole all day if i can help it. talk to your lady and find out what she wants.
its a start.
as for me , if i bore u, im sorry. i do agree with swedish though about how a marriage can feel one sided. you fight so hard and long - you get lonely. relationships r hard work at the best of times.