Thanks jellybeans. I never bad mouth my husband in front of our son. In fact I spend a whole lot of time telling him how much his dad loves him to make sure he's not doubting that ever. I'll do whatever I can to make sure he hurts as little as possible.
I've already filed for divorce. My attorney and I are finalizing the initial proposal which my STBXH will receive soon. I'm afraid a battle will ensue shortly thereafter. We don't have alimony here though there is spousal support if necessary but it's really not necessary. I filed for child support and custody though he still will have his visitation, every other for holidays, etc. I'm asking for modifications on the Christmas front which won't go over well but knowing what I know now about his living arrangements I am sure none of it will go well.
I do go to the gym weekly. It's my only way to blow off steam.
And I am attending a new church with my son this weekend as the guests of friends and I am really looking forward to that. I think this will be huge for my son as they have so many activities for children and I know it will be a great benefit to my son's well being through all of this.