Originally Posted by Xxaire

I am considering separation from my SO (my faith only allows divorce if adultery has occurred). I am in a lot of pain and anguish because I REALLY want/wanted this to work, and to give up after I have spent so many years giving to this relationship feels like failure.

My H is verbally abusive and suffers from depression. But what its doing to me is tearing me down. I have to come to grips with the fact that I CAN'T change him, and no matter what I do, somethings will not change. I am considering leaving shortly, although it'd be better to wait another year or two (financially and for our education).

But, those reasons I'm staying aren't totally selfish; I secretly wish I'd get pregnant so that maybe things would change, but that would be stupid to have a baby to save a relationship; because I know it won't. We'll still end up separated, because I won't allow myself to be verbally abused in front of my children, then I'd ruin other people's lives.

I apologize for this rant, but I haven't anyone to talk to.