I am in the military and deployed to the God forsaken desert. I am a 16 year veteran and this is not my first rodeo but for some reason this is the deployment that has been the back breaker. I feel like every second is an hour and everyday is an eternity. I cannot help but watch the clock even when I am busy I stop and ask for the time..I have a wonderful wife and 3 beautiful kids who support me to the fullest. I guess I have my moments where I have the thought she might be cheating but there is no eveidence and again, she REALLY is wonderful. I am just so tired of being sorrounded by fences and walls, missing birthdays and holidays and so on. One could and would say the nemisis of all phrases to a military member or spouse "you knew what you were getting into when you joined" but that is the equivalent to telling someone grieving over a death "they are in a better place now"....Most of us really don't know what we are getting into..We think we do and by the time we find out we end up loving our country so much we stay in..Anyway...Just really depressed and wish I could do something to get this feeling of helplessness out of my mind and soul. Thanks to all.