ďHelp! Itís been a year since my husbandís affair. I love him and I know he loves me but I still donít trust him. Sometimes I check up on him so often that I feel like Iím going crazy. How can I learn to trust him again?Ē A:Point #1:
Try not to think of trust as an all-or-none experience. Instead think of trust as running along a continuum. With this in mind, compare your level of trust for your husband before the affair with how you feel now. Thereís probably a massive divide between these levels of trust, causing you to feel stuck. To help determine if your trust for him is increasing, think about how you felt when you first learned about his affair and rate this on a scale from 0 to 10 (10 = your highest level of trust; 0 = absolutely no trust). Your score is probably very low. What rating would you give six months after the affair? And now, one year later?
If you notice even small increases in trust (an increase in 1 point or even .5), then your relationship is moving in the right direction. Healing from an affair is a difficult process that occurs in small increments. Point #2:
An affair is an enormous betrayal
that can take years to overcome. Donít place an artificial time-line on this process. This will only add to your frustration and youíll begin to think that there is something wrong with you for not trusting quickly enough. Point #3:
It is absolutely normal for you to be highly vigilant of your husbandís behavior after such a betrayal. Without even realizing it, you might be continuously scanning for contradictions, inconsistencies or any indication of deceitfulness. While such monitoring can be exhausting, it does not mean youíre going crazy. Your hyper-vigilance is an indication that youíve been severely injured and are fearful that you will be hurt again. Point #4:
Is your husband being trustworthy? While there are many reasons why someone becomes unfaithful, itís important to remember that it is his
job to regain your
trust. Whether this takes one, five, or fifty years, he needs to prove that he is committed to you and only you. To this end, it is important that you openly communicate what you need from him in order to re-establish the trust thatís so vital to intimacy.
Ask yourself: ďWhat do I need from him in order to trust again?Ē You may find that you require practical assurances (e.g., seeing his phone log every day, having him call you three times from work) and/or emotional assurances (e.g., having him communicate his feelings more directly, hearing repeated reassurances that he loves you).
I cannot emphasize enough how courageous you are for remaining committed to your marriage. Because an affair is one of the most devastating events that can happen to a relationship, prolonged anger, despair and a loss of trust are very normal reactions.
I hope this information helps.
Richard Nicastro, Ph.D. www.StrengthenYourRelationship.com