Husband is antisocial, even with family, should I leave.
I have 4 boys from a previous marriage (27,25, 23, 21) we have a daughter together 14. My oldest lives with us, he moved back 3 years ago. My 25 year old moved in with his dad after his wife left him to help him financially. My 23 year old moved in with his dad about 6 months ago because my husband talks to him with no respect, inturn he talks to my husband very little and with no respect. My ex's wife moved back and they sold their house (without telling the boys) and they were told to get out. On mother's day the boys told me they had to move back in. Now the problem, my husband doesn't partake in any socializing, so he hears bits and pieces when he comes in from outside, then he freaks on me after everyone leaves about things he has heard. When I try to talk to him, he will not listen, he storms out, he slams things, and says hurtful things, I'm sure he doesn't like the boys, he has never helped with raising the kids, I take care of everything. This really hurts me and I can't seem to keep things together anymore. I'm the glue, I'm always trying to smooth things out, sometimes I want to die because I can't take living like this anymore. Sometimes I don't even care if people hate me if I leave this life forever. Last night I relized that he will never have my back, please help, I need advise, I have few friends, and my family doesn't bother with me. (I'm not as educated or have the same financial status as them.)