I am 43, have 4 children, ages 18 months to 14 years, and have been married for 18 years.
I am miserable in my marriage.
First off, my husband never kisses me. He hid the fact that he does not like kissing, when we were dating. He pretended to like it and he did it before we were married. Kissing is one of the things I like most and so needless to say, the lack of it has left me feeling very unfulfilled. Even if he were to change his mind (which, obviously he won't) I have grown apart from him romantically because of this. I feel like he deceived me and I resent him for that. He never even hugs me or is affectionate in the least bit. I have no desire to be physical with him at all because of his lack of affection.
I find myself wanting out of this marriage. If it weren't for my four kids, I would get out in a minute. I was much happier feeling before I married him. Problem is, I am committed to this marriage because I know it would just destroy my kids' lives if we divorced. Believe it or not, the kids and my husband have no idea that I feel this way.
I feel like time is slipping away and I am just going to die in a loveless marriage. I want a man who is affectionate and loving and likes to kiss.
What should I do? Maybe I should just have an affair???