He wants to buy a house and I want to run away...
I have a problem and don't know what to do.
When we got married 9 years ago, this jerk was not who he was. He was church going, everyone went to him for advice, he was perfect and then jumped off the deep end and I don't know why.
I have been secretly trying to save money up to leave my husband. He drinks a lot, admits he hired a prostitute once, is verbally abusive, spent all our savings, and just an all-around jack ass.
We both wanted kids, but now after everything that has happened, I don't want a kid anymore. I haven't told him that because I don't care anymore, I just want to save up enough to leave. I did say that I would be more ready to have a kid if I had a home of my own to raise it in.
He surprised me yesterday with the fact that he got approved for a home loan and wants to start shopping for that dream home. This was not at all in my plan. I don't have enough saved to leave yet. But if I don't go along with this house plan, he will know something is wrong and I am scared of him. He started taking anti-depressants this week, but I don't think it will fix him.
I'm scared and I have no friends or family. I just moved here. What do you guys think?