No More Feelings!!
I have been married for 12 years now and have been struggling with my marriage, believe it or not, for 5. Mainly staying with my husband because I have an 11 year old daughter. I have no feelings for him. We have gone to counscelling which he did not care to go, but that just did not seem to do anything. Sure it helped somewhat???? while we attended. I have said so many times I am going to leave you and he says "No, don't." But nothing changes. There is nothing in here It's an empty marriage. We don't talk, no sex, no friendship, I have epilepsy and he has no idea when my last neurologist or seizure even was.
I look at him and I'm at the point, I hate myself right now saying this, but there are times when I am so mad at myself for marrying him. I'm just disgusted with him. However, there is a tiny, very,very, tiny sliver where I question God can we make this work? And I just nod to myself and say "Hell, No!" Forgive me for saying that. But I just keep thinking about my life without him in it.
I do tell myself that maybe I should wait 'til my daughter is 18, wait 'til she is done school. But I just don't know???? What to do?