Here is my story so far:
I met my husband when I was 16. I was already working and more or less living on my own, and we ended up getting married when I was 17 (he was 20). I am now 25 years old.
Things were alright for a few years, we did our own thing.. however, lately the resentments have been piling on. His career is going very well, but I've had to end my careers or "compromise" because it would relocate us and he would not be able to find a job with equal pay, and doesn't want to "restart" his life somewhere else (even though I did when he moved us to the opposite side of the country).
Not only that, but there is no attraction. There is no sexual chemistry between us... the thought of having sex with him bothers me. The thought of him touching me bothers me. I don't kiss him, I don't enjoy it. I brought this up to people around me and they all said it's "normal". It got to the point where I started thinking there was something wrong with -me-.
Over the years as I worked at my jobs, I had the opportunity to meet and connect with other men. One guy in particular was interested in me, and one day at a group outing at work he kissed me -- I stopped it, of course. I was attracted to him in many ways, but I'm a rational and reasonable person and I always believe "a promise is a promise", marriage is the same way. I avoided my coworker, and he apologised and things cooled off quickly after.
However... this also adds to my resentment towards my husband. I've never had any opportunity to be with anyone else (my husband was my "first")
He's stopped asking for sex so often, but he still brings up the point of wanting to have kids.
There is nothing wrong in our marriage... that is the worst part. He is, by definition, the perfect husband. I'm sure if I was older, and had more experience it'd be great.
I'm just really confused, and I don't know how to approach the subject.
I've thought about this long an hard, and I really, really just want to leave and have the opportunity to make something of myself instead of being stuck at home denying myself the time to dedicate to myself, and have a career, and for once experience some good sexual chemistry without having to deny myself or feel like I'm "broken".
How do you bring something like this up?