Should I leave my Husband?
We have been married for 10 years and have 3 beautiful children all three under 11. I work an 8-5 and he's been unemployed for almost a year. Since he's home he's the primary caretaker for our 3 children, cooks, and combined with my children I generally come home to a pretty clean house and dinner cooked or we pick-up fast food etc. He's a pretty involved dad and a great father and all around great guy however, like all of us he has flaws. Lately I find myself often considering separation or even a divorce which I never ever dreamed I would consider. We dont spend a lot of time together usually when I get home, he's leaving to take our son to baseball practice. We will occassionally watch some TV together but we watch different things so he usually has one TV and I usually have another. I generally go to bed before him and there's hardly any communications about our day, life etc. I feel unattached most times. When I tell him about it, it improves for 3-4 days and it's back to the same ol thing. If we are in the car, we only have one. We can not say one word to each other. He can get on the phone with his friends and other coaches and talk for up to an hour or longer, whereas we hardly have any communication. Sex is usually 2-3 times a month, lately I'm just not even interested. There's no affection, and I'm just sick of it. I feel lonely and like I'm not getting the attention or affection I need. Again, I will mention it to him and it gets better for 3-4 days but then it's back to the same old thing. I'm pretty certain he's not cheating and I sure am not, however I've found myself imagining my life with someone else. We usually argue once or twice a week typically on the weekend when I'm home and not at work. We never really agree on anything and he always trys to talk over me or dismiss what I say. He wants to be the alfa male and says I talk too much or dont know when to close my mouth, which always leads to a huge fight. I refuse to bow down to him or not say what I feel. He thinks I should just listen more and not respond I guess but that will NEVER happen. I dont know, I love him yes but I dont like the way he treats me especially in front of my daughters. I just think I deserve better and I have imagined I guess that I should be treated like a queen. He use to do that but not anymore. Im sure I have my faults and he claims he treats me better than I treat him, which may be true. Im a little selfish at times and like things a certain way, somewhat of a neat freak, but Ive learned to pick my battles. I'm also fustrated with the finances of course, at the same time since Im paying most of the bills my self (he gets unemplloyment) I often ask myself why I put up with the crap, when I'm paying the bills alone. Am i crazy or just need a small break. I honestly feel that if we didnt have any children I would have left a long time ago. I think I'm still with him becasue of our childen and I KNOW that's why hes here, as its been said a time or two during arguments. And of course hes unemployed he's not going anywhere anytime soon. I need a reality check someone please.