I live in NH, I have been married for 5 years. My wife and I have been unhappy for at least 2. It started when she and I lost trust. She was sexting another man. She did it when we first started dating, not even six months in. I should have realized it then, but I didn't i was blinded by emotional connection. I was in the army and felt that I had very little time to get a woman in my life and I think this clouded my judgement. Then a few years later she went out with her girlfriend and did it again. I couldn't prove it was sexting at first, just messages with him asking for pictures of a sexual nature. Then I started to get curious and put a few things on her phone and computer. About two months after I did this, she texted the same man that has been nipping at our relationships heals for the last few years. She texted him asking that they restart sending the pictures. I waited, then the next day they got sexual.
Anyways, I am now standing up for myself and I told her she has two weeks to get out of my house. She and I fought what seemed like forever. Then she left to go to a friends house, she didnt want to come home, but she finally did to see her kid. She said she needed her space to figure out what she wants. Then this morning I woke up (even though I didnt really sleep). I told her, we needed to talk. I sat with my coffee and started to tell her its not just her fault its both of ours. I asked her what she wanted to take from the house, and how we are going to handle things financially. She was crying, and emotionally distraught just like I am. I am having trouble, I am a stay at home dad that collects disability for my military service. I have nobody here to talk to because I moved to this state for her. I am dying inside and I am having a hard time staying strong and following through with this divorce that is good for the both of us but, maybe not at this moment. What can I do to get over these feelings. This is the hardest thing I have ever done, and i dont know if I can handle it. I am a wreck. I am trying soo hard to stay strong for my kids, for myself. Ugh..I cant handle this. I have no firends here, they are all in california, I have no family here. what am i supposed to do???
Anyways, I am now standing up for myself and I told her she has two weeks to get out of my house. She and I fought what seemed like forever. Then she left to go to a friends house, she didnt want to come home, but she finally did to see her kid. She said she needed her space to figure out what she wants. Then this morning I woke up (even though I didnt really sleep). I told her, we needed to talk. I sat with my coffee and started to tell her its not just her fault its both of ours. I asked her what she wanted to take from the house, and how we are going to handle things financially. She was crying, and emotionally distraught just like I am. I am having trouble, I am a stay at home dad that collects disability for my military service. I have nobody here to talk to because I moved to this state for her. I am dying inside and I am having a hard time staying strong and following through with this divorce that is good for the both of us but, maybe not at this moment. What can I do to get over these feelings. This is the hardest thing I have ever done, and i dont know if I can handle it. I am a wreck. I am trying soo hard to stay strong for my kids, for myself. Ugh..I cant handle this. I have no firends here, they are all in california, I have no family here. what am i supposed to do???