Silent treatment; too scared to say the words "i want a divorce"
My husband and i have been together for 22 years. we have 3 children 21, 11 and 10 years old. we are mexican both born and raised in CA. i tell you this because i think that one of the reasons i've stayed with him so long is because i don't want to be considered the stereo typical "single mexican mother"
anyway, my husband has a history of cheating. about 4 years ago i found out he was sexting w/ a girl at work. i don't have proof, but my gut tells me it was more than just sexting. at the time i was too afraid to leave him because our son was just graduating from HS and getting ready to attend college, plus i think I was also afraid to be on my own. i worked thru it and eventually forgave him for the relationship w/ this woman; but never forgot.
fast forward to today. my husband recently lost a significant amount of weight and is obviously feeling confident. i found out a couple of days ago that he as been referring to a coworker as "babe" which is pet name we have for each other, i also found that he has been having several hour long PHONE conversations w/ another woman he says is an "old friend". also, I found that he has been having "chats" another old fried from FB. he called her "chica" which to me is a little too friendly.
i confronted him with this and he had nothing to say except that "it's not what I think". since then I've been giving him the silent treatment and trying to avoid him at home. i just don't know what to say to him, where do i start, what do i say?
it's obvious he's looking for attention from other women. i'm tired of this and i need to build up the strength to leave him. but i'm afraid to be a single mom. plus i know i love him, but i don't like the person he is (can that be possible?)
has anyone out there been thru this? can you give me some encouraging words to find the strength to end this finally?