Can I ever hope to be intimate again?
I don't even know how ro begin. I am so crazy confused and in distress. I am 36 and have 3 grt kids. I am in my 15th year of marriage to a man who is verbally and emotionally abusive. He is desperate to save the marriage and says he will change. However there is something a little deeper going on. Not until I hit deep depression and started seeing a therapist did it come out that my husband has also sexually abused me in different ways over the years that started before we got married. Partly one of he reasons I felt I HAD to marry him. ( alon with a host of other reasons) we have never had a healthy intimate life and even when we do engage, I would go into the bathroom and cry after. I really thought something was wrong with me, but I know am coming to grips with reality. I can't look at him , don't want him to touch me, can't even hug him. I don't k iw that I will ever be able to be intimate with him again. Is this too far gone? Will I ever be able to get past this to have a healthy intimate relationship? He says time, forgiveness, and compassion will heal us.
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