I've written a few times and thought I'd just take this opportunity to express where I'm at now.
We had (another) big chat last night, and realised a lot of issues with our marriage that were there from the get-go. We were at different stages of our lives.
It finally hit me last night, clear as a bell, that it was over.
For the first time.
He still believes whole heartedly that we can fix it, that he has no doubts in his mind at all that I am the one for him and that we should be together forever.
But it just cant be.
I've been a complete mess, crying constantly, and I think I am crying out of realisation and greif. That it is over. That I will not be married to him anymore.
We are just not compatible but I realy wish with every bone in my body that we were. But you cant fake it.
He agreed that we've had a brother/sister type relationship for some time now.
I asked him why he didnt bring it up himself and he said that hindsight is a wonderful thing, or something like that.
I just wanted to let all of those WOmen who are leaving men, and not because of an affair, not becuase of abuse, not because of anything other than the fact that it is not love, was never love, and is just a caring conpanionship-type relationship and the fact that that is not enough no matter how much you wished it would be.
I wanted to tell you that you are not the only ones going through the most confusing type of pain there is.
I wanted to say to you that I understand and wish you well.
Good luck.
We had (another) big chat last night, and realised a lot of issues with our marriage that were there from the get-go. We were at different stages of our lives.
It finally hit me last night, clear as a bell, that it was over.
For the first time.
He still believes whole heartedly that we can fix it, that he has no doubts in his mind at all that I am the one for him and that we should be together forever.
But it just cant be.
I've been a complete mess, crying constantly, and I think I am crying out of realisation and greif. That it is over. That I will not be married to him anymore.
We are just not compatible but I realy wish with every bone in my body that we were. But you cant fake it.
He agreed that we've had a brother/sister type relationship for some time now.
I asked him why he didnt bring it up himself and he said that hindsight is a wonderful thing, or something like that.
I just wanted to let all of those WOmen who are leaving men, and not because of an affair, not becuase of abuse, not because of anything other than the fact that it is not love, was never love, and is just a caring conpanionship-type relationship and the fact that that is not enough no matter how much you wished it would be.
I wanted to tell you that you are not the only ones going through the most confusing type of pain there is.
I wanted to say to you that I understand and wish you well.
Good luck.