Re: No communication
Sadly....nothing has changed in the last year and really not in the last decade. I had decided to do more things on my own...things that make me happy, hoping that would be enough. I have been doing a lot more with my friends, going to the gym, going to to the movies alone if I want, painting classes, jogging, kayaking. Of course he makes me feel bad about it, and I just resent him more for making negative comments and whining about how I am always trying to avoid him. I stay out of pitty for him and he is okay with it. He sees that I am unhappy, but he continues to do things that he knows irritate me like stomping his foot when we watch tv, or complaining about the lawn needing mowing (he refuses to mow). I already know the answer, I know what I want. I know that life is short and I know that I want to be happy, BUT I also know there is no easy way out of this for me. I am weak. I know if I said I am going to leave he would beg me to stay and attempt to change, but it wouldn't last. Then he would get angry and mean and lash out. I don't want the kids to see all that and honestly I am not sure that I am strong enough to handle it.