12-18-2011, 09:18 AM
Join Date: Nov 2011
| | Re: Perpetuating the lie.....
I have been fighting this for nine years.. What we have has NEVER felt like a marriage.. I never really fell in love with her.. I was 31 when we met.. I had just come from many years as a long haul truck drive.. A VERY lonely existence .. We met on line and talked as friends for awhile.. I thought I was in love.. But really looking back I was in love with the idea of being in love.. Having someone .. My parents were really pressuring for grandkids.. And I couldn't say no at the time.. Something I've come to see thru my therapy. I proposed the first day we met in person.. Without really thinking it thru... Now I can't live it anymore.. As for negatively impacting the kids?? Only if younlet it... I have a few friends who have divorced and those kids are fine.. Why is it everyone see divorce as a negative??? I think this is positive .. Will allow BOTH of us to find someone who truly loves us!!!!! She has NEVER done therapy .. Suggests it.. Both IC and MC.. But when pushed about it she backs away.. I have been in IC for 6 months now.. Going regularly .. every two weeks... Why should my kids not see that the truth is better then living a lie???
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