Re: Feel helpless
You are devastated by the hurt you are experiencing, many of us have been thru the same. There is nothing anyone can say today that will make that hurt stop, or answer all your why and what if questions. Honestly many of your questions will never be answered, you are going to have to accept that.
What those that have been thru it will tell you is to stay focused on protecting yourself and negotiate a fair and equitable settlement, for your sake and the kids sake. So many times grief over shadows common sense and we give too much, an example is you leaving your home. Yes it sucks to be there with her BUT it can harm you in the long run and it is harder for the kids when one day you just aren't there any longer, your kids are too young to understand.
Things will work out however they do, in time the pain will diminish and go away, take care of yourself, your kids and your rights.