She wants to stay, even though I have to go :(
1st, hello everyone. I'm glad I found this forum and even more grateful for the internet to connect people. I have been married for over 4 years now, and my wife and I have a child together (2yrold), she has a child (5yr) from a previous relationship. I have been married before and have 3 other children. For the last couple of years, our marriage has had its ups and downs, just like everyone else's. I work for the DoD and live in Germany, this is where I met my wife. I have been here over 5 years and got reassigned to move back to the U.S. With that being said. Our marriage has dipped to the lowest level the last year. When we argue, it turns out pretty ugly. I have threatened with divorce and pretty much being an a-hole, she has resulted to hitting and screaming (she never hit before). This last time, when the word divorce came to play (my end out of anger), she stuck to it, and now isn't backing up.
As far as love, yes, the love is still there, I know she loves me, and I love her too. I just think with all that is going on, she is insecure about leaving her comfort zone here in Germany and going to a new place where she doesn't know anything. I just don't know what to do with this. I have orders and must go. I know I take lots of fault, leading her to come to this conclusion. I'm just lost and broken and don't know where else to turn. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Sorry for this being so vague, I just don't know what else to say. I don't want to love my wife and family.