Re: Lost, Confused and Scared. HELP!
Syanna - I believe that what you are having is just trying to live your fantasy since there is no reality attached to it. It's like when we have a crush or the feeling we have during our initial phase of dating, everything is so perfect. We idolize that person. When you parted that person/your friend, that fantasy remained since you didn't really get to be with him romantically for a long time. If you actually dated or married that person, you may be bored or worse have more issues than you have now in your current one. You may just be in a phase out of your own boredom from your marriage. Keep in mind that marriage is bound to be boring at times. It is a journey, not a vacation trip. It's going to need work, commitment and many many tries. My husband just left, I can tell you that I'd love to have a husband like yours who stood by you through thick and thin. I wouldn’t trade that with any fantasy boy coming along the way.
I think you need to come out of your fog (EA). You probably should stop being friends with him if you can't control your emotions and if he is hinting he wants to be with you. He is separated, his emotions are all over and he is lonely (trust me , we know). So he is vulnerable and he is still trying to figure out what committed and long lasting relationship means. Your husband already knows what it means and he is living it with you.