I am so scared I will not make it through this. My wife has hurt me so badly and I feel she is not done yet. I know she will immediately find someone else and through it in my face, which will destroy me.
There is a reason that you wanted to divorce, just remember that. Best rule of thumb is no-contact with the stbx. No phone, no text, no email, no facebook, ect. The only exception would be if you have children.
If you do need to talk, keep it to text or email to avoid open discussion. At times you may need to talk, but if the conversation drifts away from the the original topic, kindly mention that is not the topic of discussion and if it continues, hang up.
Look at the bright side, if she finds someone else, they will have to deal with her $hit and you don't.
I feel so unloved right now, and have a huge void in my heart. I know finding someone too soon will be a huge mistake, but I just want to be loved so badly.
This is tough and the first couple of months are especially bad. I broke down and went out looking for something. Caused more problems than it was worth.
If you can, I would look into some counseling to help you get through this period. It helped me to have someone to talk with and bounce things off.
You are still a good person even though you will be divorced. Learn from this relationship, work on you to make yourself a better person, and when the time is right, find that someone special to spend time with again. Lots of us have been there before you and survived, you can too.