11-29-2012, 11:13 AM
Join Date: Nov 2012
| | I really need some outside advice, please!
I got together with my husband in 03 and married in 04. We were both young and I was madly in love with him. I use to put him before everything and everyone. I left him about 3 years ago and kept on leading him on I guess you can say. I see it as I cared about him too much. Here is my problem.
I want out.
At the beginning of our relationaship here was talk from his family of him being diabetic. He would always reassure me he wasnt. He lied. He went years (5) of not taking care of hisself and when finally found out, I came down on him to care for and love his self as if he chose to live longer for us. I personally feel if someone cant love theirselves, they are incapable of loving another. He would constanly fight with me and say if he's going to die, he's going to die happy.
When I left him 3 years ago, I felt free. I had him constantly calling and begging me to come back. He had also threatend to kill his self. He got sick and had a reallybad infection in his foot. Despite the fact that his family hated me, I was there for him. I stayed in the hospital for 6 weeks with him and left shortly after discharge because he didnt trust me.
After everything, he was in a short relationship with someone and we got back together. I was jealous. I hated to see that he would sacrifice a lot of things for her that he didnt do for me. I hated that his family acted like her best friend but treated me like crap from the begining.
I am so unhappy. I dont know what else to blame it on but the obvious reason. His diabetes was so poorly controlled for so long thathe cannot have kids. It has cause him to have dry orgasms. Now, we have no sex life. He now has ED I guess. I wonder if its just me. There are other things to do but he doesnt even try.
He is also very materialistic and I am not. He cares more about the latest gadget then his health and I cant take it anymore. He cares only about him. Doesnt put in any effort into the marriage. I feel like I living witha brother or room mate. I love him so much, I just dont know if its the right kind of love to stay in it.