Re: My marriage is over. After last night there is no hope.
Now she finishes school and wants to start a family. I say great. I get what I want, sex,intimacy and some affection, she wants a baby, so did I. We try for a few months, part of me feels that we are only having sex to make a baby. It felt robotic but I at least I am having relations with my wife. Sure enough she is pregnant and then sex totally stops. We go 9 months of no sex. I look at porn more and more. Smartphones make it all too easy. I then get swept up with Facebook. I look up everyone and anyone. Exes, girls from high school, middle school, you name I looked at it. Never ONCE did I contact anyone. My wife knows no of this. She is busy with the kid. She claims I don't pay attention to her and dont help with the baby. That I am always playing with my phone. I tell I have nothing to hide. I never used to erase anything. I really didn't think at the time I did anything wrong. So we get pregnant again right away with our second son. Again 9 months and no sex. I look at porn. I look at Facebook. But this time from the 3rd moth to 9th month my wife is snooping on my phone every night without my knowledge.