from cali to mt to cali

\ok I Will Try To Condense This We Feel Deep In Love Got Married He Did Drugs I Struggled With Depression We Had Misscariages Then Had A Baby.....he Did More Drugs I Had An Affair He Found Out We Moved To Montanna Away From All My Family And Friends I Whent To College He Whent To Work And He Started To Drink Heavley, I Left He Whent To Rehab....i Was Working Being Mommy Going To School Full Time.....he Got Out Of Rehab....drank A Few Times And Was Out A Few Nights I Started To Get Realy Depressed, I Am Now Done With School...so I Woke Up One Morning And Wanted To Die Instead I Jumped On A Plane With The Kids And Now I Am In California And I Am Still Not Happy He Calles And Says I Stole The Kids....inspite Of Everything He Never Was Abusive Never Was A Mean Person And Loves His Kids Realy...i Feel Like A Horrible Person And He Does Have Away Of Making This Feel Like I Am To Blame And We Should Work Things Out I Dont Want To Hurt Him And When He Calls We Do Love Eachother I Do Tell Him That Yes We Could Work On Things...............................but Can We Realy Should We....we Have Tried Couples Retreats Therapy Church I Have Been On Meds And Accupunture He Has Done Rehabe Now Were Over A Thousand Miles Away From One Another..he Misses The Kids And He Cries Its Breaking My Heart....but I Cant If We Stay Apart Move Closer To Him I Realy Like Living Close To My Friend And Family