Feeling hollow inside - Page 3

justean · 06-03-2008, 07:29 PM

hi all, thanks russ for the 180 degree turn. u make sense. thats what my husband has done. turned around. cut back on the drink. fab dad. but since the 1 nite stand. in the past 2 months he just hasnt fought for me. and ive gone down and down.
yes im gonna tell u, i went to a female friends, and caught the eye of her male friend.
i know this is a recipe for disaster. but i really dont love husband at the moment. im an attractive woman and i love sex. nothing wrong with that. husband a no no. and its frustrating.
hubby and i have been on and of for years. we dont come back for the children, only have for ourselves.
i have and vice versa hubby have fallen out of love with eachother , but with time and fun, it did come back.
but this time it just feels different. there is no trying or fun.
in 13 years of marriage, i am so faithful, you would not believe it. but hubby took a couple of opportunistic moments when split up. i have neva done that. but now hes done it in the marriage and yes honestly russel thanks for advice. it makes sense.
but maybe i want to try it now. i love attention, who doesnt.
but to me , i should be showered with as much as you can get if you want to save a marriage - but hubby not interested, just wants to talk general, ie, i washed the car today.does not want to talk about future or love . gone of kissing, touch. i cannot keep fighting for something thats not there.
i wouldnt do n e thing for revenge. but im only 35 and not ready to give on emotions or sex. thats why i feel so lonely and empty.

izz4u2mm · 06-04-2008, 09:11 PM

Justean....maybe you need some chocolate too

. And now you really are not boring to me. You must be getting vert itchy for sex by now since hub is not paying attention to you. Is that what started all this for your marriage. I'm older than you but I too feel somewhat like you and to be honest I am horny as hell. I need love and attention too and am tempted to do something about it soon. But what can that bring but infedelity...thats why I joined this forum to seek some help/advise in time of going down the gutter with feelings. I just spoke to my local hardware paint manager and she told me her younger than her hubby is lieing to her about dumb things and she feels like pulling up the stakes and divorcing the H. Man whats going on around me??? maybe you can turn me onto your female friend for a internet date

..you go with her male friend and we'll all be happy

???
Oh well I think I am going crazy now. Sorry but I am honest and tell it like it really is and not in a rude way.
Might as well ask you how good looking you are?? You must have had lots of attention in the past because of your good looks and by now want it back again since your H is not caring for your needs.
If I offended anyone please forgive me.
Manny

justean · 06-08-2008, 02:50 PM

hi manny, nah , your not rude, your funny.
i tried the chocolate, crap
i tried self DIY pleasure , crap (not to offend n e one)
and why not b honest, to b honest im sick of ppl not being honest. whats the point.
when i strolled across this site i thought the same as you. i just needed someone to discuss things with. take other ppls advice. it really does help.
ok how attractive am i, well put it this way, i recently went out with a friend (female ) and 4 men (her friends) they all took a shine to me, passed on sexy comments. etc. i am brunette, and slim ( size 10/12) uk size.
i wont b more specific, incase some one takes offence.
i am looked at quite often , if that helps.
but then again i take pride in my appearance. i class myself as refined and well tuned.
when i was in school i considered myself the ugly duckling that changed into the swan.
i go out , c lots of ppl (men) from school days and i was a no no, now im a yes , yes and boy there faces r a picture, i love it, then i just tell them to move on.
i have no problem with my confidence levels. i hold my head up high. so i dont need that back. the event with the 4 men was only 2 weeks ago and this weekend on going out, i had the sex offer with the school friend. nah dont think so.
i can live on my own because i like myself. i have been here b 4 and i know the score.
actually one of the men from the group party. i chatted to him for a wk. We had a bit of fun in terms of txt sex. but then it all clicked in my head.
i dont need this. i am a sexual person, but its not the right time to b with n e 1 else. so yes i get frustrated. the txt sex was actually very good. believe me it works.
i was paintin out my garden and suddenly i did this 180 degree turn in my head.
i felt an inner peace.
i forgave my husband for his infidelity.(we remain separated).
but i think the best part was, i was so confused for so long, that it suddenly just ended in my head.
by forgiving the act, i actually let myself free. im not confused and its the best i have felt in ages.
whatever i do now, is not infidelity, i am single.

izz4u2mm · 06-10-2008, 02:01 AM

Well I'll be damned

. Finally a real and friendly and really down to earth woman!!!

I agree with all the honesty stuff you talk about cause I am for reals. I've seen, heard, and done alot in my lifetime and you Justean are one of a very few I have met or had the chance to chat with (on this forum anyway) that are real people. I am also glad you did your 180 and set yourself free which I have been doinf for myself lately. They tell me" you have suffered enough Manny!!" I am waking up to this now. And another thing I did send you a PM and I am expecting you to answer it. I think you r a very courageous and interesting woman and need to know you more. Lets get together on private email so we can at least get to know one another . Yes I love to be silly at times and am usually warm and kind too.
Come on Justean...sit next to me and lets chat.

Love you
Manny