Thanks for sharing, Manticore. Let me ask you, how old was she?
Was it only once? What happened after that for you? Did you ever meet her husband? Did you feel guilt and regret for him, or was it more for yourself? Do you know what happened to her, or if she cheated again?
how old was she?
24, I was 21 but I have always looked younger, some people though that I was I hisghschool years when that happened.
Was it only once?
yes only once.
What happened after that for you?
we talked about the whole situation, about the mutual attraction and how it was wrong, I quit the job next week (I was disswasher, and I didn't really needed the job, I was taking a break from college and staying with a friend doing nothing but patying and being lazzy), I quit and avoided her (mostly cell pone, she didn't know where I lived).
Did you ever meet her husband?
Never, I was in that job like 5 months, she told the other waitresses that her husband had an accident and he was now in wheelchair and he couldn't perform sex anymore, I never knew if it was true or not, we never talked about him.
Did you feel guilt and regret for him, or was it more for yourself?
at the very beginning I was more worried about her marital status than her husband, I was not thinking about him getting hurt but about what I was taught for years that marriage is forever and messing with married people is wrong, I mean marriage was supposed to be forever, so I keep thinking "no she is married it can not happen"
then Little before it happened I was more self abosorved in my own feelings and desires, she was hot, all my friends telling me that I had to bang her, all the waitresses playing cupid, the manager that had some affairs with the witresses braging about his conquests (it was like averybody supporting infidelity).
then when it happened I was more occupied with resisting in doing it again, I really wanted to do it again, there is a ego bost knowing that she choosed you over her husband, I knew that I could had lots of sex with just making a phone call and wanting it, so it was really hard, I began to patying even more to resist the whole situation.
finally when I calmed down I feel bad about her husband, was dissapointed in myself and feel sorry for him, let me fathom why in the next question.
Do you know what happened to her, or if she cheated again?
I don't know what heppend to her but I bet she did it again.
see, whe she began to hit on me, she didn't know my story or background, she didn't know I was being rebellious and taking a break from college, so the only thing she knew is that I was a 21 year old dishwasher, so she was not looking for a new man to replace the other (I was younger than her, with a low salaray job and for what she knew, no education) so she was looking just to get laid with someone she found attractive, I feel bad about her husband because I knew she will keep doing it until I guess she finally could found someone worth to Exchange him for. (I have had 10 years to think about the whole situation).